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Sirens November 15, 2008

Filed under: Rambling — wigglylisa @ 9:26 am

It’s sometime after midnight. I hear the siren coming. It’s on the main road and I think to myself, “please don’t turn onto my street”.  “Please don’t turn onto my street”.  I hold my breath. Damn it, it turned, it’s passing my building now.  I jump out of bed, throw my sweats on and go outside to see where the fire truck went.

I have always been afraid of sirens.  For as long as I can remember.  I was always convinced that someone I knew was in trouble. And for the longest time I couldn’t figure out why.  I was in my early twenties talking to my mom about it when she told me a story about something that had happened when I was little.  My mom, brother and I were out one afternoon.  I’m not sure how old I was, probably somewhere between 4 and 6.  We pulled up to the house as a fire truck was pulling up to our house.  Apparently my dad had been drinking by the pool and passed out and none of his friends could wake him up so they called 911.  He was fine and spent many more afternoons drinking.  Anyway, even though I don’t remember this happening, maybe I internalized the sound of the siren.  It’s a good theory anyway.

But have I always jumped out of bed when a fire truck goes by my house? No… of course not.  But in July of this year, as I was leaving for work, a fire truck and ambulance went tearing down the street. My uncle lives a block and a half away so I just took a quick peak down the street.  The fire truck did stop down by his place, but it didn’t look like it was right out front of his place.  I knew that if it had been for him that his partner or someone else would have called me.  So I took a deep breath, calmed down and went to work.

Four hours later I got a call from my mom.  Yes, the fire truck and ambulance HAD been for my uncle, but his partner hadn’t bothered to call anyone for hours.  She hadn’t even bothered to go to the hospital with him. And then she called my Aunt up in Idaho. What the hell? I was livid. So, long story short, I got up to the hospital, found out what was going on and took care of things.  He is ok now.  He had gotten dizzy and had fallen down.  They weren’t sure at first what had happened, they thought maybe stroke, but as it turned out he had started taking some new medication and it was reacting badly with a different medication he was taking.

But my uncle is old. And he’s not walking so well.  His memory is starting to go a bit and I worry about him.  And every time I hear those sirens I think, “please don’t let it be him”. It’s really starting to fray my nerves.  So instead of sleeping, I am sitting here writing in my blog, hoping that it will help me to calm down enough to go back to sleep.

It was bad enough when the sound of the sirens made me feel anxious.  But now I have a real reason to worry when they turn down my street.

So, people of my small town, please don’t have any more emergencies tonight.  I need to sleep.


Yes on Prop 8… Are you serious? November 8, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — wigglylisa @ 6:15 am

I must live in an alternate universe or something.  Well, the Bay Area is different than most places, but come on…. Proposition 8 passed? Holy hell… in my own little world I didn’t think Prop 8 would even be a close race, much less that it would actually pass.

And the reasons I’ve heard for people voting “yes”.

“God meant for marriage to be between a man and woman”. Oh, is that so? Wasn’t “God” used as a reason for not allowing inter racial marriage? God put people of different colors on different continents… so they shouldn’t marry.  Or how many “God” reasons were given for women not voting? And by the same token, if it had been abortion on the ballet… would we have repealed a woman’s right to choose? Now don’t get me wrong… if within your religion you want to say marriage has to be between a man and woman, that is your right and I don’t have a problem with that.  I think it’s short sighted and narrow minded… but that is your choice.  But don’t make your religious beliefs take away the legal rights of others.  Why would someone that believes in God’s love want to take away two human beings right to declare their love for each other and their commitment to that? Anyway… I digress, that is not really the issue.  I guess the point for me here is, isn’t one of the cornerstones of the American dream the separation of church and state? I’m just wondering if people really believe that anymore… doesn’t seem that way based on the passage of Prop 8…

And then there are those that don’t want their kids to be taught about gay marriage in school.  What? You think they aren’t going to learn about it outside of school? And better yet… the example of the teacher that took her/his (don’t remember the gender) students on a field trip to a gay commitment ceremony/marriage. To those of you that don’t want this to happen and think taking people’s rights away is the answer, let me ask you this: How many field trips have your children gone on that you didn’t know EXACTLY where they were going? And how many field trips did you NOT have to sign a permission slip? Ohhhh and how many field trips did you NOT have the right to say, “I don’t want my children to go on that field trip”?  You’re really gonna take people’s rights away over a fear of a field trip? What a cop out!

I don’t usually share my political beliefs with people.  My beliefs and choices are mine and I don’t feel like it’s any of your business what they are.  Thank God I live in a country where that is an option… just like it’s an option for those of you that do like to debate your beliefs.  But this issue really gets to me. Just because someone’s beliefs are different than yours, it doesn’t make them wrong or illegal. Should gay marriage even be something we are debating in the legal/governmental realm? I am just shocked that our culture is still so narrow minded.

It makes me really sad.