Slap Slap June 16, 2008

Is no one gonna tell me to stop feeling sorry for myself and get on with it? Ughhhhh! Read my last post and rolled my eyes at myself! Needless to say, I was having a “poor me” moment.

Truth be told… I have the best friends any woman could ever ask for.  Yeah, my family is going through some “stuff” right now and things have been crazy… My man has a lot going on his life right now too and can’t always give me 100% of his time and attention, but I really do have wonderful friends that make me feel special all of the time! My online friends, my RL friends and even my online friends that are now RL friends… I am a lucky girl.

And I still can’t believe that none of these awesome friends didn’t *smack* me upside the head. Sheeeeeshhhh…

What Do You Want For Your Birthday? June 15, 2008

My birthday is a week away and everyone keeps asking me, “What do you want for your birthday?”. The thing is… I don’t really want any “thing” for my birthday. How do you tell people all you want is to feel special, to feel like number one without having to ask for it? I want to feel like I’m worth the effort… as a Mom, as a Sister, as a Daughter, as a Friend and as a Girlfriend. Even as I read that I know it sounds so very selfish and self centered. I want to be the most important… at least for a day.

The thing is… I used to make people make me special on my birthday. I didn’t give them a choice! (laughing at myself here!). June 1st would roll around and I’d start proclaiming Lisa’s Birthday month has begun! I would leave no doubt in people’s minds that it was my time of the year and I needed them to celebrate it. But then I hit my 30s and I was a mom and I started to feel like I was pushing too hard. It didn’t feel quite as special when you were telling people they had to celebrate your birthday. So, for the last…. hmmmm… more years than I’d like it to have been since I turned 30…. I have been playing it more low key.

As I sit here feeling sorry for myself, I think back over the last few years and realize that my kid has definitely caught the birthday bug and she tries to make it special for me. And it’s so sweet and makes me smile. So I get to feel special as a Mom. Last year she organized a “surprise” dinner for me. It was very cute.

And this year, for the first time since I was pregnant with my kid (she’s gonna be 12 this year!), I have a someone special in my life. And of course a week out from my birthday things are rough between us. I’m not sure he’ll even remember my birthday. Much less have the ability or desire to make me the most special thing in the world. I guess we just wait and see on that one.

My birthday is on a Saturday this year. You wait and wait and wait for your birthday (for those of us who actually like birthdays… I know some of you could care less about your birthday) to fall on a Saturday. What a great day to celebrate and have a good time. Know what I have planned? Nothing. Wait… that’s not true. I am going to be spending the day doing laundry and getting my kid ready to go to her grandma’s the next morning. I will have a nice dinner out with my girl though. Our last night out before she is gone for a few weeks.

What do I want for my birthday?
Get over myself
Be happy for what I have
Maybe I’m just PMSing or something this year!

Goodbyes May 1, 2008

I’ve never been good at saying good bye. Even when I was a kid… I remember going to visit my cousins and when it was time to go home, I would bawl my eyes out when it was time to say goodbye. And now, even a phone call or an IM session… I hate endings.

What is it with goodbye that is so hard for me? I think when I am in a moment, I don’t want to let it go. When I feel connected to someone I am at my happiest. Even a small connection. I am a very emotional person and I wonder if maybe I attach too much emotion to goodbyes.

Imagine a girl (ok, so I’m past my girlhood here, that’s besides the point! :p) who sometimes almost cries when hanging up the phone with a friend. See the mom who gets teary saying goodnight to her baby goose when she spends the night away from home. Can you see the woman who is hugging her friend goodbye at the airport? Just thinking of these goodbyes makes me cry.

Tell me, how is this girl suppose to handle the big goodbyes? I can’t even type about the biggest goodbye of my life… when I had to say goodbye to my Dad. I had to do that one after he was already gone and well… I don’t want to go into that one.

And what about the emotional goodbyes? The end of a relationship? How do people say goodbye and then just go on as if nothing happened? How do people say “I love you”, but I need to leave you? How do you say goodbye? Why don’t you fight? I want to be able to say goodbye and just move on. I don’t want to feel paralyzed.

I’m not sure where this post was supposed to go. I just have goodbyes on the brain, I guess. Last night I got one of the hardest goodbyes I’ve ever gotten. Never mind that the goodbye alone really hurt, but it was so full of anger and malice. I’m not sure how to make my heart say goodbye on that one.

Even when I write, I don’t like to say goodbye…. So, maybe this time, I’ll just say, “see you next time”.

First Sunday Blog Post - Twitter Backgrounds April 21, 2008

Awhile ago my Baby Twin said I should commit to writing in my blog at least once a week. I agreed with her and decided to write at least once a week on Sundays. That was a couple of months ago. So today I decided to finally start my at least once a week Sunday blog =)

Now, what to write about? Well… the last few weeks have been pretty tough for me. But I don’t really want to get into all of that. My last post was about that and I don’t want to only write about the sad things. So, what I will tell you about and show you is what I’ve been doing to try and keep myself busy…

I love to be creative on the computer. I’m not good at sewing or painting or drawing, but I can play and get creative on my computer! One of the things I like to get creative with is my Twitter background. It all started with the color wars on Twitter… I belong to the Pussy Pink team and I’m damn proud of it! But I didn’t have any pink background so I went looking for one. And I found this:

But take a look at the tile all the way on the right, second row down… What the HELL is that!?!?! LMAO! My good friend from Twitter @darkgracie fixed that for me:

She fixed it so I didn’t have the scary pink thing anymore! And then I thought, “hey, I can do that… I can make my own”. So, as I was feeling kind of “down”… I started with a grey theme:

For a first time, it wasn’t too bad. I didn’t like that it was so long and so I thought I’d add some squares to make it more square. I needed to keep busy so I started pulling different images from the web based on some color themes:

PURPLE THINGS - this is the one I currently have on my Twitter page:

And then I did a few more colors just to keep busy:

TEAL THINGS:

Then I was talking to my Baby Twin and since I knew she liked pink, I decided to find pink things that made me think of her.

PINK THINGS for KARRIE

And the whole time I was working on these things, my Goose was lurking in the background and she asked me to do an Orange version for her. And on a side note here, I must say THANK YOU to the lovely @JeannieGrrl for helping me find the Orange clarinet!

ORANGE THINGS FOR GOOSE

While I was talking to Jean about making my collages, I learned that her favorite color is purple and she likes, no loves, Hello Kitty… Can you guess what I did next?

PURPLE HELLO KITTY:

And the one person in the world that heals my heart always is my @IBTerri. So as I was trying to find ways to heal, of course she came to mind. Another Pink friend! But she loves loves loves Mickey… so this one was for her:

PINK MICKEYS

Those are the ones that I have finished so far. I’ve got some other ones that I’ve started. I’ve got a martini page… a cracked/flaming heart page… a green page…a black and white fairies page. Just a few that I have started, but haven’t finished yet. Also, I have some backgrounds that I did prior to my current project. I have a few with my Second Life avi, Coconut Jewell and I have one that I did with all of the avis of my Twitter friends.

If you have anything you’d like me to do, let me know. I could use the distraction! Sometimes it’s a challenge trying to find enough photos to fill the whole grid.

Oh yeah… one other thing. All of my backgrounds have something in common (except the grey one)… Can you figure out what it is? It has to do with a common theme on Twitter.

Ok kids… that’s it for my first Sunday post. Sorry it’s so long, but hopefully you had fun looking through the backgrounds

Until next time… Wiggly One signing off!

She Knows April 16, 2008

She Thought

She thought he was the one

After all this time… the one she thought she’d never find

She thought he understood her

Understood her heart

She thought he was the one to love her

Despite how difficult she knew she could be

She thought that he wanted her for who she was

With all of her emotional bagage

She thought he would never let her go

Hold her through all of her self doubts

She was wrong

She Knows

She knows he is not the one

There is no one for her to find

She knows he doesn’t understand her

Her heart is too complicated

She knows he’s not the one to love her

Even as her heart screams that it can’t be true

She knows she can’t be loved for who she is

Her baggage is too heavy

She knows he’s let her go

She was right to have self doubt

She was right… she will be alone

#1006 October 6, 2007

Today is a day I almost made a huge mistake. But all is right in my world and things have turned out the way they are suppose to. I don’t think I would have liked myself very much had things happened the way they were planned.

But then why do I feel such a sense of loss today? Why the tears over the what ifs? I didn’t think today would be this hard for me. Maybe it’s just left over hurt from the way things happened. Maybe I just need to get through this day and it’ll all be over.

There will always be times in our lives when there are things we want that we just can’t have. But to have those things dangled in front of us and then taken away… well… that’s tough.

So now… I take a deep breath and move on. Trying not to dwell on the what ifs.

Centerfold September 12, 2007

Centerfold, by Pink… this song just speaks to me right now.  For me, it’s been a summer of “Pink”.  Her songs rock and she kicks ass! When I am on Twitter and say I am headed home… right now you can be sure it’s probably a Pink song I’m screachin at the top of my lungs as I weave in and out of traffic.

 And here you have the lyrics to the one song that is speaking to me today:

Pink - Centerfold lyrics

(can you turn it up please, just a tiny bit, that’d be awesome)

I’m on the rebound
I get it where I want to
I’m on the way down
I’m getting fixed without you
You gave me a band-aid
I put it on my heartbreak
And all you got is pictures in your hand

Don’t you wish you could hold
The angel in the centerfold
The fantasy you couldn’t control
That walked away from you
Don’t you wish that you could hold
The pretty little paper doll
The one you couldn’t quite control
Who walked away from you

Flip to me, I’m the centerfold
I’m gonna charm you
All night
Stick to me, I’m the centerfold
We’re gonna go, oh
Hold tight

I’m gonna hate you
’til I forget you
So here’s a keepsake
I left it in the bathroom
Just a little something
Something to remind you
I’m sure you’ll never get this close again

Don’t you wish you could hold
The angel in the centerfold
The fantasy you couldn’t control
Who walked away from you
Don’t you wish that you could hold
The pretty little paper doll
The one you couldn’t quite control
Who walked away from you

Flip to me, I’m the centerfold
I’m gonna charm you
All night
Stick to me, I’m the centerfold
We’re gonna go, oh
Hold tight

Flip to me, I’m the centerfold
I’m gonna charm you
All night
Stick to me, I’m the centerfold
We’re gonna go, oh
Hold tight

Now it’s him but it could’ve been you
Tell me why it’s him when it should’ve been you
Its crazy how this makes you wanna change
Here’s an image you won’t forget
All your life I’ll tease, I’ll torment
I’ll be gone as soon as you turn the page

Don’t you wish you could hold
The angel in the centerfold
The fantasy you couldn’t control
Who walked away from you
Don’t you wish that you could hold
The pretty little paper doll
The one you couldn’t quite control
Who walked away from you

Flip to me, I’m the centerfold
I’m gonna charm you
All night
Stick to me, I’m the centerfold
We’re gonna go, oh, hold tight

Mom’s Gone Wild in Vegas August 29, 2007

It all started at the airport bar when I looked over at IBTerri and said, “you did NOT just say that!” and it just spiraled from there. We got to our hotel room and we just kept coming out with these one liners, that taken out of context would be so funny - at least to us. We kept saying, “oh my God… if anyone heard what we are saying”. And that’s when it hit me. I knew if I didn’t write them down we’d lose them all! And I just couldn’t have that. So I grabbed the Planet Hollywood note pad and 11 pages later, plus one napkin, we have quotes from Vegas.

Some of them are really funny. And some of them I look and say, “huh?” And some of them I can hardly read whether from laughing while I was writing or from the amount of ‘tini’s consumed. Haha! So here they are, in the order written and completely out of context. Hopefully a few will give you a giggle. All I know is that writing them in the moment was a hoot!

Thursday night to Monday morning:

1. I like cherries

2. You sound like my 13 year old nephew, said to the smoking woman

3. I will take care of your boarding passes if you take care of me in the other way

4. I hate hotel comforters because there’s always cum all over them

5. Discussion of “seaman sauce” as we’re drinking creamsicle martinis

6. Yeah, her pillow is all wet

7. Got rings? Huh? RINGS! Ohhhhhh riiiinggggs (think about it for a moment… it’ll come to you)

8. I wonder if mine works… it’s all bent

9. Oh, she’s like a Monet, from far away she looks good, but up close, not so much

10. Ridden hard and put away wet one too many times - yeah, we’re bitches

11. The one with the tongue that eats the jello pudding cup with no hands!

12. I still like sparkley balls

13. I have that skirt in SL!

14. They have ones that are “this big”. We call those Hymes

15. Yeah, pump it baby!

16. Who the fuck needs porn?… Just hang out at the bar

17. She’s fucked up… or down… or up and down

18. Leave it out!

19. I think it’s all at the bottom

20. I just lean down and suck on it

21. It’s too slippery, I can’t get it off… I can’t get it off either… Ohhhh there it goes

22. Wiggly Lisa’s rooster just died!

23. It comes out slow, but it works

24. This is the most fun I’ve had in a hotel room ever!

25. I’m so limber when I’m drunk

26. It’s hard!

27. Ok it’s all off my chest

28. This is gonna be really hot… yes it is, cause it gets coated as you put it in

29. I like the long ones! - yes, I know

30. I like mine in layers. You start at the the beginning and work your way to the end

31. I am totally numb right now and sooooo enjoying it

32. We need a man to finish the meal and then get lost

33. I think anything would taste good right now

34. I hate this stuff… you gotta bang it to get it out!

35. We should take our picture with her seeing as we’re the lesbians

36. Were you guys together all night?

37. I need to fix myself

38. A couple of guys will lose their load over that one

39. Hyme is number one!

40. I am gong to try a girl before I die… just not you, you’re too good of a friend

41. We’re not cheap lesbians

42. I think I am a voyeur, I like to watch

43. Can I play with it? Have fun!

44. Does it come with one of those stick thingys? No… just your finger.

And there you have it! Random quotes from Vegas. We promised ourselves we’d type them all up with no editing. And that’s what I’ve done. Let me know if you have a favorite.

Wiggly out!

July 17, 2007

The Friend Test – About Wiggly as told by her Friends

I sent this Friend Test to all of my friends and was amazed at how many people actually responded. It was SOOO much fun. Usually you only get one or two people to respond to these. And some of the answers were amazing. Lots of laughs! I was going to post my favorite one and then I decided I’d just combine all of my favorite answers into one test. You probably won’t enjoy this as much as I did… but I hope you at least get a giggle or two (take particular note of the pet question – that one almost made me pee)

This what my friends think of me! Apparently I’m a tequila drinking sex fiend with a texting problem… well ok.

(2 Points) My name: Baby, ain’t it? (lisa)

(4 Points) My last name: puhlease… ditto

(4 Points) Who am I in love with: Don’t know about love but….lust would be the wiggle man from vegas

(1 Points) Where did we meet: CompuServe Channel 20

(6 Points) Take a stab at my middle name: Jeanne (easy!)

(1 Points) where do i work: Life XXXXX XXXX!

(3 Point) what am i afraid of: Being on American Idol

(2 Points) Do I smoke No, unless motivated with the proper substance (and only rarely)

(3 Points) Do I drink: You mean Should you drink? And the answer would be a resounding NO. I refer you to LaFondue.

(3 points) Am I a virgin: ROFLMAO, Oh hell no.

(1 Point) Do I have any siblings: “Jamie” aka bajina boy

(2 Points) If so, How many: 1 brother and 1 half brother and 1 half sister…I think

(2 Points) What’s one of my favorite things to do: sex and drink

(1 Point) How many piercings do i have: : 5 - 2 in one ear, 3 in the other

(4 Points) How many tattoos do i have: None…..yet (what’s the status on that anyway?)

(3 Points) What’s my favorite type of music: A mix of different stuff

(4 Points) Am I shy or outgoing: say shy, but really outgoing

(3 Points) Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules: : You like to think you are a rebel….but you are a good girl at heart

 

(2 Points) whats my favorite color: still purple? or it is red now?

(3 Points) name something i love to do: Apparently get laid by xxxxx

(4 Points) name a talent i have: holding a lighted ice cube between your boobs

(4 Points) whats my phone number: 1-900-BAD-GIRL

(9 Points) what kind of underwear do i wear: considering you do wear underwear — right and you’re not like Britney Spears…I would say all types: thongs, briefs, granny panties, etc. whatever floats your boat on a given day.

(4 Points) do i have any pets: yes, Chris, Oscar, mountain man….need I continue? Oh, and of course your pet pussy…..I mean cat.

(2 Points) Who am i dating/likeing right now: MEN MEN MEN MEN

(3 points) how tall am i? 5′ 6″

(5 Points) What is my worst habit: TEXTING WHEN DRUNK

(5 Points on creativeness) If I were stranded on a desert island,
what would I bring: cheese, something that takes batteries (ahem!), and cell phone for texting;
A case of tequila and a hot guy with a large wanker…..and a tireless tongue……oh and a library since that would eventually get boring.